3 August 2012

Long overdue

Dear Minna and Finn,

it's been far too long since my last post and in my head I have noted down so many things I wanted to share with you over the last 2 months! So much has happened since I last wrote to you: We have packed up your first love nest in boxes, went to see all your Grandmas and Grandpas, Great-grandpas and Great-grandmas, aunties and uncles and lots of small friends and big friends. It was an ongoing goodbye festival throughout those last few weeks. So many special moments!

Everything we left behind in my Dad's attic


you love to pick flowers and smell them


Berlin-Tegel Airport moments before take off


Now we are here - in Australia.

We arrived with 2 big suitcases, 2 small ones, 1 big backpack and 2 small ones, 1 double stroller and Mommy's handbag. It's amazing how little you really need when you have to be able to carry it all. (We didn't even have to pay an overweight fine at the airport.)

We have been trying to explain to you two what is about to happen, but of course it is difficult to fully understand. You knew, Minna, where we were going, but I think the huge distance that lies between your 2 homes is still a mystery to you.
my little thinker

It's still hard for me to believe that we actually moved from one continent to another. We have been preparing for this event for so long and now it has happened.

All we did was follow our hearts.

We have been in Gladstone for almost one week now. Even though I am very excited about this part of our life journey my heart is only now realizing what is going on and all over the place:

It's a little blue because I have left my home and family behind.
It's a little shaky because we totally left our comfort zone and let go of so many things!
It's a little judgemental even though I don't want it to be, but being surrounded by a different culture makes me question my own one a lot and at first I catch myself thinking: "Well, in Germany we don't that!" or "Back home we have this!" or "Where I come from we can simply buy it everywhere." 
It's also a little impatient and I wish someone could just tell me that everything will be alright and we will find jobs that we like - no worries! and the kids will be happy in their day care - of course!

Even though there have been a few little tears from my heart I still enjoy this whole upside-down feeling. It makes me feel alive and it reminds me that there is always something beautiful even in a sad and uncomfortable moment.

I want you two to remember that it is OK to feel all these things, but to focus on what is really important:
Being thankful, sharing love and trusting the future.

Stopover at Singapore Zoo

With lots of love,
Mama


3 comments:

  1. It's an amazing thing you are doing and I'm envious. I feel life without those things you left will be equal parts liberating and scary. I have all my toes and fingers crossed that everything will be fun once the dust settles.

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  3. Janie! Thanks for your comments on my blog :) And just as I am moving to Berlin, you left :( But you are in Australia!!!! And that is wonderful. You did it! I can fully understand moving to another continent and I think you are giving Minna and Finn such great advice here. Big hugs to you and viel Erflog making your new home xoxoxo

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